Why ?

He asked , " Why would you always  care so much ? "

"Because I know how awful is it to go through something without anyone there to care.
  Besides, you were always there whenever I need someone, its returning a favor. " she replied in  smile.

e.r.t 27.4.15

30 Day Blogging Challenge - Day 3

Day 3- My favorite quote

Its not easy to find time for blogging, so I was so delayed now. But its ok, I will try my best to finish this 30 days , even though it took longer than expected. Here come the third day :

I love how this quote bring out a lot of positive vibe within me. This clearly teach me to see a life through a bright side. :-)

Love,

Emie

30 Day Blogging Challenge Day 2 - 20 Facts about me

30 Day Blogging Challenge - 20 Facts about me

Look like this challenge become harder & harder. 20 Facts sound too many, don't know if I can pull out 20 facts about myself..hahaha.. Let just give a try ^_^ In English would be hard for me, so kita kasi mix saja bahasa..haha

1.  Ketahuilah saya ini kuat melatah. This is a serious problem :-P
2. Ketahuilah saya ini hantu cat kuku - I cannot go out without doing my nails , and I kept my nails long :-) Its a passion!
3. Ketahuilah, saya pencinta Korean Band CNBLUE! Ini kipas susah mati ni.
4. Ketahuilah, saya suka tengok bola juga, tapi waktu ada perlawanan penting sahaja. World Cup, COPA , Euro saya layan. Weekly punya tu nda larat bangun pagi mok tengok .:-P
5. Ketahuilah, saya selalu bermimpikan Jung Yong Hwa & Lionel Messi..hahaha. Serius ni, sampai pernah mimpi Messi datang Mukah. Hebat!
6. Ketahuilah. saya mungkin nampak ramah mesra hijau daun, tapi saya agak susah untuk rapat dengan orang. Kalau ngam kepala, sekali jumpa boleh kamceng terus, kalau nda ngam berbulan bulan masih tiada topik persamaan itu :-)
7. Ketahuilah, my body age goes over my actual age. Punyalah buruk!
8. Ketahuilah, saya tak makan tauge..haha
9. Ketahuilah, kopi pun saya tidak minum, migrain!haha
10. Ketahuilah, saya balik2 kecewa dalam cinta bertepuk sebelah tangan..haha.Sabar sabar :-P
11. Ketahuilah, saya ada 4 anak buah yang pandai2 comel2 nakal2..Haha
12. Ketahuilah, saya masih layan Kartun Barbie sampai sekarang!
13. Ketahuilah, saya agak kuat berinstagram. And setiap caption on my insta harus start dengan "Because"
14. Ketahuilah, saya suka melihat bunga api !
15. Ketahuilah, saya suka melihat bintang juga!
16. Ketahuilah, saya agak puitis orangnya, rajin mengarang , kadang2 berbunga bahasa.haha
17. Ketahuilah, saya bukanlah penakut, tapi saya tak tengok cerita hantu. Terimagine itu hantu ! eeee..haha
18. Ketahuilah, saya anak mak. Dululah..dulu..haha
19. Ketahuilah, saya cepat boring buat benda, jadi saya kurang ada hobi.
20. Ketahuilah, walau bagaimanapun, membaca adalah hobi saya..hahaha


I think I did well! hahaha.

Next post would be on My Favourite Quote ^_^


Love,

30 Day Blogging Challenge - Day 1 My Blog Name

So, I am far behind my scheduled, promise to start this last Monday, but was so busy & cannot really found a minute for this. Finally! Here, I start my first day.

Day 1- Your Blog Name

Since I started my blog, I remember I changed the name once. I can really recalled the first name.
Then, until now the name stick to " Every girl has her own fairy tales " . I am a big fan of fairy tales, to mention Cinderella, Rapunzel, Snow White or do you watch Barbie, or Once Upon A Time Series, oh God I'm in love with all this kind of stories. A fairy tales lover like me always believe that every girl were born with their own story, their own fairy tales. Everyone of us will go through different set of stories, different timeline, different ending. And, for me, no matter how hard your story is at the end everyone will live happily ever after just like in all those fairy tales.  A fairy tales somehow makes me seeing this life in a positive way, dreaming a happy ending & never give up in life. My blog mostly talk about me, my life, my dream, my story & my fairy tales.

See you on the next post :-)

Love,

30 Day Blogging Challenge

So, I have promised to do this,lets start then. :-) Check out the next post for Day 1 ^_^

I Decided to...

I decided to wait
For you
You said you are not ready now
Then I will wait until you are
Take as long as you need dear, I decided to wait for you

I decided to continue
Loving you for the rest of my life
Even if you don't
I will still loving you
I was born to love you
Heaven made me to love you
I will dear loving you till my last breath

I decide to stay dear
This time I will stay
As long as the star above you
I will stay dear
Not gonna move even a single inch
I will stay forever besides you.

Tuhan pasti mencukupkan

Anak kecil menangis minta dibeli mainan
Si ibu menangis dalam hati
Demi sayang diturut keinginan si anak
Tapi si ibu terjerat lagi
Harga mainan perlu dibayar
Kerja seharian tidak pernah tercukupkan
Segala macam kebutuhan dunia
Si ibu tega
Percaya
Tuhan pasti mencukupkan

-e.r.t-
24.11.14

Batu

Ada batu dalam hati
Dibiar mungkin jadi racun
Ingin dimuntah tak terluah
Kecil tapi berat
Nampak biasa tapi kadang-kadang indah
Nampak indah tapi kadang-kadang berbisa

Perawan berdoa
Batu jangan jadi racun
Takut hati gagal membendung
Bisa dari keindahan
Muntahkan saja hati
Sekecil manapun
Muntahkan saja
Jangan biar ada sisa
Biar tak sia sia

Make up Base , all about that base :-)

Entering the new stage of life, from a girl to a career women, I found myself start to put more interest in learning about make up skills and facial care all those stuff. At first, I found its weird to actually letting myself going into so much trouble looking for those make up things that I never care for too much before. But thanks to so many online shops now, you can easily get all those make up things that you need with a great deal and fast services. Zalora is one of them. I will tell more about Zalora in my next post, stay tuned for that !

Today, lets talk about make up base, all about that base :-P  People often says, natural beauty is the best, but still, women need make up to enhance that natural beauty. Make up will make women looks more glowing and full of charisma. And the key point of this all is to choose the right make up base. Check your make up kits now, if you don't have at least one  Make up base   such as foundation and concealer, it means your make up kits is incomplete and you better hurry get one ! However, picking the right make up base sometimes not that easy right, especially to the beginner. But don't worry women, below I share 3 tips to keep on mind when shopping for make up base.

1. Skin Colour

First of all, take your time when choosing the right colour of make up base that suit your skin tone. Remember, even a slight undertone of the colour, your face will definitely look a bit off. Make sure you do not holding the product colour close to your face instead of comparing it to your hands. If there are samples, take advantage of it as it will definitely help you make a wise choice.

2. Skin Type

The second tips that can be practiced while choosing a make up base is to select a foundation which suits your skin type. Some people may have dry skin and some may have oily skin. Choosing the wrong makeup base can ruin your skin resulting to clogged pores and acne. For a dry skin, choose a foundation which are made for dry skin type, so that you will not have cracked face at all. For the individuals with oily skin, go for a normal type of foundation which does not have greasy texture. Make up bases often work well on oily skin. It will help you to get smooth skin if you choose the perfect make up base for oily skin. Besides that, women can tackle the oily skin by applying powder constantly through the day. 

3. Reviews on internet

In this era of technology, internet can be a great help to us even in choosing the right make up base. What I always do is find Mr.Google, he has more than 1000 answers for my question. Before purchasing the right make up base, do a very simple study by watching or reading user reviews on internet. Go Google, blogs, You Tube, Instagram, Facebook, Twitter or any other platform, a lot of user share their product review online. You will find a make up base you are confident in purchasing. And while you are doing that review online, why not order the foundations you want on the internet too. If you are wondering where to get a wide selection of make up base products online, check out ZALORA to get the best deals possible and have it delivered right at your doorstep!

Dream Trip To Macau

" You have to dream before your dreams can come true. " -A.P.J Abdul Kalam

I always love travelling and Macau is one of the places in my Must Travel List. To be honest, Korean famous drama Boys Over Flowers actually first one who introduced me to Macau. I fell in love with Macau once I saw how beautiful is this city through that drama,and I said to myself, I must go to Macau one day! Then again, Running Man, Korean famous variety show, make my love to Macau deeper through one of their episode in Macau and starting that day Macau climbed to the top rank of My Must travel list .

Beauty in diversity  :  Macau, the fusion between the beautiful history of Portuguese and Chinese culture. 

My love to explore the diversity of cultures and  ethnicity through out the world always been the main reason why I wanted to go on travelling. I have come to learn, through reading & watching videos/ dramas/ shows about Macau, that Macau has a very unique fusion of cultures. They have Chinese majority population and the Portuguese's history that blend well to create a very unique cultures and lifestyle. I would say, Macau can be describes as Chipsmore. Yes, the chocolate chips & the biscuits compliment each other very well, just like how the Chinese & Portuguese cultures in Macau compliment each other very well too. And as much as I love to eat Chipsmore, I am eager to finally visiting Macau one day and witness this unique culture and lifestyle with my own eyes.

Love at the first sight : Macau, Asia's very own little Europe

First things that comes to my mind when I saw photos and videos about Macau, most of the buildings has European architecture taste and it was absolutely stunning! Lets name few, Senado Square, The Cathedral Macau, St. Damingo's Church and the main attraction of Macau, Ruins of St. Paul. Its somehow remind me a little bit of my visit to Spain on 2011, and also, it does remind me to Venice, Italy. To be able to capture all this beautiful building and sight with my own camera would be very overwhelming !

Photo Source : Google image : http://www.dramabeans.com/2009/02/boys-before-flowers-episode-14/

Live life to the fullest : Macau Tower & the bungee Jumping

I would say I born to be an adrenaline junkie. This little soul of mine love thrill and excitement. It would be a great life achievement if I can jump from World highest bungee jumping , 233m at Macau Tower. To make it complete, I would go for Skywalk, and possessed myself with Macau city view from the top of Macau Tower.  And, lets go for all,  so lets also try Tower Climb. Oh my God, that definitely make a lifetime history! 

Running Man's casts did it! So, I must do it too ^_^

Photo Source, Google Image : http://anggundiary.wordpress.com/

A happy tummy : Eat all I can!

Macau would be a great place to make my little tummy happy for the rest of the month! From the famous Portuguese eggs tarts, to the almonds cookies and sweet pork jerky , omoo yummy. 

And a must try Serradura ( a desert made of creme, cracker crumbs covered with soff egg white) , the most famous Portuguese dish, Bacalhau, and Paella (Portuguese Seafood and Rice). I would definitely eat all I can :-)

Macau , as unique as it name, it would be great if I am send to this trip. SEND ME, the one who will dancing along to the  Portuguese Dance on the street. SEND ME , the one who will reach the sky and bungee jumping off 233M Macau tower, SEND ME, an ordinary girl who has so much love to learn & explore more about culture and lifestyle of Macau and all over the world. SEND ME, a simple soul who thirst for more adventure and life changing experience! SEND ME, a little tummy who craving for Macau delight cuisine and foods. 

To conclude, here are my OATH, my first commitment to  Macau Government Tourist Office (MGTO) and Nuffnang Malaysia, Thank you for this wonderful opportunity, and even just participate in this contest already overwhelmed me. 

Dream Trip to Macau Oath

If I am chosen as a lucky winner, I would enjoy my trip to Macau to the fullest and with my humble heart promise to do all of this :

1.  Fully utilizes my Facebook, Instagram and Twitter to brag about my wonderful journey and experiences during the trip.

2. Express all of my joys and satisfaction by writing about my travel experiences in my blog.

3. Appreciate every moments of those 3D2N given time to do everything that I can while in Macau.

I love Macau <3 p="">

If you love to join me in this contest, come visit Nuffnang official page Dream Trip to Macau Contest or  Facebook page My Macau :-)

this tiny heart

too much for this tiny heart to handle,
I had enough, i had enough
The wound is so deep
the tears doesn't know how to stop
too much for this tiny heart to handle
I had enough, I had enough..

Farewell to the world
For the love has killed me
To the world I won't be smiling again
For the love that never arrive
I will stop fighting
I will leaving
Farewell to the world
For the love has killed me..

Happy Mother's Day Mum

Because she is a mother,
She never sheds a tear in front of us even she is having the bad day of her life, Because she know,she must be strong for us.
Because she is a mother,
She dedicated everyday of her life doing everything she can, so that we can have what other kids have.
Because she is a mother,
She teach us the value of hardship from our very early age,
Because she know, through hardship then only we can grow wisely.
Because she is a mother,
She scolded me when I always wanted to leave school back then,
Because she know,without education I will be forever lost in my whole life. Because she is a mother,
She always forgive us countless times we did mistakes,even though sometimes its hurt her badly,
Because she know,we might hurt & sad if she did not forgive us.

I can't never recall how many times that I falling sick without you entertain me,because you always do.

And,did you know mum, you are the funniest mum in the world,
Especially when you are being crazy fool,the best mum!
We will laughing to dead every time we recall that moment.

I just wanted to tell you mum,in this special day,
I love you mum and I'm forever thankful for everything you did to us.

May God bless you always.

Anak mak yang paling kuat nangis,
Emie ditat <3

The ___i.g.h.t!

I thought everything now is all alr.i.g.h.t
But why I still cry every n.i.g.h.t
Looks like it just not ri.g.h.t
I lose yet another f.ig.h.t
And I don't know how long will it take to make everything alr.i.g.h.t

Should I cry another n.i.g.h.t
Or should I just give up the f.i.g.h.t
I maybe don't know when I will be alr.i.g.h.t
But, I just want to finally catch the right fl.i.g.h.t
And be at your s.i.g.h.t

ert1707

Life as engineer..eh eleh^^

amboi..title bukan main! :-P.

Its been a month.Life as System & Network Engineer, I guess...
1. Don't dream to see me in smart office attire:-)
2. I spend half of the day in server room and PABX room .
3. Server Management Console is my new bestfriend.
4. What is Microsoft Exchange Online, Office 365?ish ish.
5. Hi Emilia, can you help me to reset my window account.Hi Emilia, I forget my email password, help me reset.
6. My new toy is office telephone set. I carry it around almost every time.
7. When the new staff arrived, I hold the power to their computer & email access.huahahaha
8. Be strong Emie, carry that tool bag. Climb on that ladder.Pull that cable.Owh, did I mention, I'm the only girl in my section..
9. Walkie-talkie is now more important than my handphone.
10. UPS is my life. UPS die, we in the network team also die!

I'm proud of what I am now. I'm blessed to be here , walking this journey to the successful me. Thank you Jesus!I enjoy my working life now although sometimes I can't really understand what I'm doing. Still a lot to learn! Stay strong Emie, enjoy life!!

2014!

2014, still not too late to wish everyone Blessed New Year 2014! May all of you have a great journey ahead!
2013, thanks for all the great memories & adventure:-) 2014, lets rock! yeah!

2014!
Great start! Fresh! Alive!
New Career! New Place!New spirit!

Let make this year be another                           year!
Amazing!Fruitful!Success!Beautiful!Sweet! Rock!Fantastic! Remarkable!

2014, I want to be develop in this area:
Career life! Decision-making! Social( How I Interact with others, the way I talk to others)! Feeling(The way I deal with feeling)! Relationship! Faith!

and I want to be a better version of myself. The grown up Emilia! The most important thing, stop crying over a stupid things:-P

Resepi Kek Coklat Cheese

Hi kawan-kawan,
Nah, saya share resepi ni menjelang Krismas ni. Semoga Krismas tahun ni lebih lazat & meriah ^^

Kek Coklat Cheese Kukus

Bahan2 Kek Coklat
1 Cawan gula pasir
1 Cawan serbuk koko (Kalau taknak pahit, letak 1/2 cawan koko, 1/2 milo)
3/4 Cawan minyak masak
1 Cawan susu cair/ susu sejat
1/2 Cawan susu pekat manis
1 1/4 Cawan tepung gandum @ tepung kek
1 Sudu kecil baking powder
1 Sudu kecil soda bikarbonat
3 biji telur

Cara2
1. Masukkan gula pasir, serbuk koko,minyak masak, susu cair & susu pekat ke dalam periuk. Masak sebentar di atas api yang perlahan (gaul sentiasa) sehingga semua bahan larut.
2. Tepung gandum, soda bikarbonat & baking powder diayak di dalam mangkuk lain. Ketepikan.
3. Dalam mangkuk yang lain lagi, pukul telur sampai kembang. Kemudian,campurkan dengan adunan koko (dari Langkah 1) tadi.
4. Gaul rata dan campurkan pula dengan adunan tepung ( dari Langkah 2).
5. Gaul sebati dan bahagikan kepada dua bahagian. Kemudian buat pula adunan untuk bahagian cheese.

Bahan2 Bahagian Cheese
250g cream cheese
1/2 Cawan gula halus
1 Biji telur
1 sudu besar air
1 Sudu besar tepung gandum

Cara2
1. Putar cream cheese dengan gula halus hingga sebati dan berkrim.
2. Kemudian masukkan telur, air dan tepung gandum. Putar sebati hingga licin.

Cara mengukus & Melapis
1. Gris loyang dengan butter atau guna non-stick baking paper.
2.  Tuangkan satu bahagian adunan Coklat ke dalam loyang. Tutup loyang dengan aluminium foil untuk mengelakkan wap masuk ketika mengukus. Kukus lebih kurang 10-20 minit dengan api yang sederhana.
3. Bila dah masak sedikit ( jangan terlampau masak, cukup sekadar boleh diletakkan lapisan cheese di atas), masukkan kesemua adunan cheese ke atas. Kukus lagi lebih kurang 10-20 minit lagi.
4. Bila lapisan cheese dah agak kering, masukkan pula bahagian adunan coklat sehingga habis. Kukus sehingga masak. Guna api perlahan sahaja supaya masak rata.

** Kalau malas mengukus, boleh juga dibakar di dalam oven.

Bila dah masak, keluarkan kek dari kukusan, buka aluminium foil dan biarkan sejuk sebelum dipotong dan dihidangkan.

Kalau ada lebih kerajinan, boleh juga buat topping :-) Tapi tak buat pun, tak apa. Sama lah kita tak rajin..hehe.. Apapun, saya share juga, manatau ada yang rajin.

Bahan2 topping
150g whipping cream - tapi sebab whipping cream mahal dan sangat susah cari, saya guna susu cair  saja^^
150g coklat masakan
15g butter

Cara2 buat topping
1. Masukkan coklat masakan dan susu cair ke dalam satu bekas tahan panas. Panaskan sampai cair guna kaedah double-boiling.
2. Kacau sebati, kemudian masukkan butter.
3. Biarkan sejuk seketika( tapi jangan sampai mengeras balik). Curahkan atas kek. Hiaslah ikut naluri hati masing2 :-) Biarkan di dalam peti sejuk sejam dua sebelum dipotong & dihidangkan.

Sedikit tips, bila baking2 ni kena yakin pada diri & gerak hati baru kek sedap! Bake with confidence dearest & just follow your instinct!

Selamat mencuba kalian & Merry Christmas & Happy New Year.

Kredit: Original resepi dapat dari beberapa blog & diubah suai mengikut sukahati saya ^^Thanks Uncle Google atas bantuan.

Resepi Sambal Belacan Ikan Bilis permintaan kawan :-)

Akhirnya, setelah sekian lama berjanji dengan seorang kawan, baru hari ni berkesempatan kongsi resepi ni di sini. Sambal Belacan Ikan Bilis. Itupun, lepas dia janji belikan emas besar papan dari Dubai untuk hamba.hahahhaa. Sambal ni memang selalu buat lah kalau di rumah. Bila ke Johor, bawa lah resepi ni ke Johor, tak tahu pula kawan-kawan suka especially yang request resepi ni :-P

Sebenarnya kan, takda resepi sangat buat sambal ni..main campur jak selalu..haha..Apapun, saya cuba terjemahkan dalam bentuk resepi yang lebih molek ye .. ^^

Resepi Sambal Belacan Ikan Bilis

Anda perlukan :

• 1 Ketul Belacan (kira-kira saiz ibu jari)
• 1 Mangkuk Kecil Ikan Bilis yang telah dibersihkan ( buang kepala & isi perut) **bilas dengan air sekejap untuk lagi bersih
• 1 Biji Bawang Merah Dipotong kecil
• 3 Ulas Bawang Putih  Dipotong kecil
• 5 Biji Cili Padi (bergantung pada tahap kepedasan yang anda mahu )
• 5 Biji Limau Kasturi Diperah jus
• Secubit Garam
• Chap chap chap chap Ajinomoto secukup rasa
• Lesung Batu untuk menumbuk

Atur cara :

1. Masukkan Ikan Bilis ke dalam lesung sedikit terlebih dahulu.
2. Masukkan belacan . Masukkan juga bawang merah & bawang putih & cili.Bagi yang gemar halia, boleh juga tambah sedikit.
3. Tumbuk semua bahan sehingga hancur.Tambah bilis sehingga habis. Tumbuk lagi. Bilis tak perlu terlalu hancur.
4. Bila dah selesai tumbuk-menumbuk, masukkan garam & ajinomoto. Pindahkan sambal ke dalam mangkuk. Siram jus limau kasturi ke atas sambal. Jangan sampai termasuk biji limau, pahit itu.
5. Akhir sekali, ambil sudu, gaulkan sambal supaya sebati. Siap untuk dimakan! :-)

 Bagi yang suka  digoreng, panaskan minyak dalam kuali. Bila minyak dah panas, masukkan sambal yang telah siap tadi dan goreng sehingga keperangan. Dah siap :-) hurm, goreng dengan petai yang dihiris2 kalau ada, confirm anda terbang di awan..hehe.

Taip resepi ni pun saya berliur-liur. Makan cicah dengan mangga, ya Tuhan!

Sorilah takda gambar step by step seperti yang dijanjikan.Bila saya balik nanti, saya ambil gambar saya buat sambal ni, kemudia baru saya edit letak gambar k. Apapun, selamat mencuba!

Info: Orang Melanau, suka makan Sambal Belacan Ikan Bilis ni dengan sejenis makanan tradisi Melanau iaitu linut. Tapi sambal untuk linut biasa nya kena tambah air , supaya senang nak cicah :-) Macam dalam gambar di bawah ^^

Internet vs Faith??

This few days, I come to few video in You Tube on one preacher, on his testimonies,a miracle that lead him to believe that Jesus is his Savior  Every video that I watched do give me an impact! I love the way he describe on "listening to God's word". As I feel more excited about him, I go to find more about him through internet,but then, the more i doubted on him. There are many people who believes in him, but there are also people who not only not believing him but mocking him. Saying he is a false teacher, selling God's Words, doing all this preaching to earn money for himself. I go to his ministry website,then yes,there are business happening there. But still, its normal right, he might use all the money from CD, books selling for his ministry purpose. I can't judge by only reading all the comments from internet. I shouldn't judge him at all,only God can judge us. Gosh...

Its take me quite sometime to actually came out with a good reflection on this. The situation is like I just believed in everything he is saying, but then, suddenly others saying that he is a total cheater, a false teacher. The inner voice in me start saying " What, I was just start to believe!? " " Hurm,maybe the people are just trying to bring him down, jealous with him".. "Hurm...hurm.."
But then again, which 1 I should trust, the preacher who actually get my attention through his beautiful sharing, or the people who actually I don't know their purpose. YES, I AM CONFUSED. I am afraid, I consume the wrong food...But don't worry if sometimes you get confused when learning your faith.There is one sister who tell me this " Faith seek understanding! The curiosity is a good feeling to encourage you seek more understanding about your faith.

Then, finally, I start to figure things out. Its not about the preacher, or the people, ITS ALL ABOUT ME. ITS DEPENDS ON ME.Its doesn't matter the preacher is true or false, because it is Jesus whom I need to listen to. The preacher, whatever he is, the most important thing is that I know which one to consume,which one to follow. If I consume not with my faith, I won't get the right food. And, every answer to all my doubt are actually written in God's perfect book, the Bible. 

If the internet get you confused with your faith, get your Bible. The answer is there. Internet indeed gives you a lot of information,but it also confused you a lot sometimes. Then, read & listen not only with your eyes & ears but together with your FAITH! Then, you will know what is right,what is wrong..

Bukan taknak kesian..bukan taknak tolong

Bukan taknak kesian, bukan taknak tolong,

Tapi, lama-lama kita rasa penat juga bukan,

Tiap tiap kali cari kita minta kita tolong benda yang sama,

Sekali dua boleh lah, tapi kalau dah jadi rutin susah juga kan..

Bukan taknak kesian, bukan taknak tolong,

Tapi, kalau tiap tiap kali lepas kita tolong janji tak ditunaikan susah juga kan,

Kata time minta tolong A, tapi bila dah kita tolong B lah, C lah , D lah pula, susahlah kan..

Bukan taknak kesian, bukan taknak tolong,

Tapi kalau awak dan anak-anak awak tak kesian kan diri sendiri ,

tak nak tolong diri sendiri terlebih dulu susah juga kan,

Sampai bila nak mengharap orang kesiankan kita, tolong kita.

Bukan tak nak kesian, bukan taknak tolong,

Tapi tolonglah paham,

situasi awak tak adalah seteruk mana sebenarnya,

Awak cuma perlu bangkit,

Tuntut hak awak,

Sedarkan anak menantu awak,

Apa tanggungjawab mereka.

Bukan tak nak kesian, bukan taknak tolong,

Tapi saya harap awak faham,

Saya pun ada keluarga sendiri, tanggungjawab sendiri

Saya pun sama macam awak, tak mampu, tapi sebab semangat buat kami mampu.

Sebab sedar akan tanggungjawab buat kami macam lebih maju.

Saya minta maaf kalau saya tak seperti yang awak harapkan.

Tapi saya dah penat, ajar memancing sudah, tak cukup diberi juga ikan mentah-mentah,

Rasanya masa untuk yang seharusnya bertanggungjawab ambil peduli.

Saya betul-betul minta maaf.

Syukur yang tak terucap!

Hari ini, baru aku menyedari betapa aku harus sesungguhnya bersyukur, bersyukur atas segala kasih sayang dan jawapan doa yang Tuhan beri untuk aku. . Dah masuk 2 bulan aku kerja, tak ada lagi aku cerita kan betapa aku gembira sebenarnya bila dapat kerja ni. Mungkin sebab beberapa minggu2 yang awal aku ada kesukaran sikit menyesuaikan diri dengan tempat kerja, keadaan sekeliling, rakan sekerja, sistem kerja, buat mula2 aku tak seronok kerja ni.Tapi sekarang, sejujurnya, aku tak lah master lagi kerja aku ni, tapi aku rasa aku dah mula masuk dengan kerja aku, aku dah mula enjoy kerja aku, dan aku dah mula dapat momentum tu ! :-)Dan aku dah mula berani untuk plan apa nak buat dengan kerja aku di masa hadapan.
Ya, bersyukur sangat aku:
1. Sebab ini first keja yang aku pergi interview, terus dapat, tengok, Tuhan sangat2 cekap! :-)
2. Sebab aku dapat kerja dekat hometown sendiri. Perjalanan pergi kerja pun tak sampai 20 minit. Dekat bukan, walau aku belum ada transport sendiri, tapi syukur ada kawan yang kerja kat balai polis yang aku boleh tumpang hari2. :-)
3. Walau gaji aku tak besar mana, cukup untuk aku dan keluarga aku! Sekarang aku dah mula ambil alih sedia keperluan rumah, beli makan minum, bayar bil air letrik segala, walau banyak yang mencurah tapi, tak terasa bila semua tu untuk family tersayang. lagipun dah memang tanggungjawab aku bayar balik semua pengorbanan keluarga aku untuk hantar aku belajar jauh-jauh selama ni (ah, macam dalam drama pula).
4. aku sekarang sentiasa dekat dengan family aku. Dah tak perlu emo2 nangis2 macam dulu bila rindu family. hehe. Dan paling seronok, setiap hari aku lihat anak-anak buah aku memebesar depan mata. Seronok lihat perkembangan mereka.
5. Wei, TAHUN NI AKU SAMBUT KRISMAS KAT RUMAH!!!! WAH SERONOK NYA :-)

Sesungguhnya Tuhan sentiasa tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita, bila waktu yang sesuai dan bagaimana semua ni harus jadi. Dia tahu segalanya.  Jangan risau k kawan2 kalau lambat kamu dapat apa yang kamu inginkan, the time will come! Bersyukur sentiasa atas kebaikan Tuhan.

God bless,