still in a long holiday......hohoho

huhuhu...lama dah terescape my letter challnge, juga byk lagi bnda sa mok crita..tp bila cuti susah mok online, so, sorry ol..next sem baru sa blogging lagi k...hepi holiday ol..and MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR..till we meet again..hihi

salam sayang,
-emie-

cuti blogging..

Finally after 2 days offline,akhirnya "taik manok" iaitu line wimax kami kembali ok hari ni..2 hari cuti online & berjaya belajar dengan jayanya..hahahha..apapun, terima kasih wimax, jasamu dikenang sampai bila2..haha..suppose hari ni tulis day 5 of my letter challnge, but I miss 2 days oredy..sorry..huhuhu.& now, I'm gonna postpone answering that challenge until I finish all my papers..I have 3 paper left, so kena focus lu..:-)

Yang ada spm, stpm, Good luck..Yana, adikku sayang, Good luck..ol the best sis....yang masih ada paper pun Good luck..samalah kita..hehehe

Until we meet again..hehehhe...

~c emie~

Day 3 —A letter to Your Parent

day 3 come....i should write letter to my parent..because both of them are not at the same place, so i will write 1 for my mum and 1 for my daddy, so this gonna be very long entry

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dear mak,

I can't remember the last time I send mak a letter like this.The only thing I remember, I sent that letter to ask for money. And today, the purposes is different, although surely mak won't reading this, but I would like mak to know how glad I'm being your daughter for the past 22 years.

Thanks mak, for your love that created and brought me to this world.

Thanks for being such a strong mum and never cried in front of us

after daddy gone.

Thanks because never show to us how much pain you have gone through to raise four of us alone.

Thanks for your sleepless night to calm me, cheers me up when I cry all night long.

Thanks cause never failed to provide us with food, clothes and perfect house.

Thanks cause never say no every time I ask for money..

Thanks cause always be there for us...

A lot mak, and I'm speechless now...thanks for everything....

You know what mak, just now homily by Dr.Sherman really touched me. Its about a mother that will do anything to support his children, while the children never care about the pain that his mother had gone through..I'm just the same with that boy mak....22 years past, and I don't even tried to understand your struggle in raising us...I never tried to at least touched your hands once and felt how hard you worked for us until this time...What i know, calling you, not to say hi, or asking how you been, but just to ask for money, money, money...sorry mak for being that heartless daughter. I still remember, when I was a small little girl, I always complaining every time you bring us to help you at paddy field. I really hate that time mak, I felt that you never understand our feeling.We children should staying at home, playing with friend, but every holiday, you will asked us to worked. i hated it mak, very much..But know, i realized, that all is not for others, but for ourself, and if not us that help us, who else.. Sorry mak, because being very lazy and not supportive daughter at all..If only I could go back to that time and help you with a sincere heart.Sorry for the fight after you married again that day mak, I do that just because I don't ready to share your love with other, I'm afraid that you will lost your focus on us, your children..Sorry for make you crying that night mak..And sorry for running away from that problem, for ignoring your calls and hiding myself from you. I just don't want to be hurt anymore that time , sorry for being that selfish. Sorry for never understand the sorrow in your eyes.. Sorry for everything mak, and before I end this, i should tell you this, the word that I failed to tell you for the past 22 years..I love you mum..I love you mum..may God bless you owez....

your daughter,

~emie~

me n mak...

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Dear Apak,

This gonna be my first letter to you..and, of course, a lot to say pak..

its been a while after you left us pak..18 years old, and I'm a big girl now..I'm at my 5th sem at UTM right now, learning Science Computer. hurm, i didn't like this course actually pak, but, this is God's plan, so I should accept it..right..but, so sorry pak, look like I'm not going be a teacher as you wish..tak cukup syarat lah pak.hahhaha....But don't worry, at least Bibek is a teacher now, teaching budak tadika..Zack working at Kapit, juruteknologi makmal perubatan..Bibek was married, Zack pun, and Bibek will become mama soon, your first grandchild pak, pray for that baby ok. Said to Father above( I know you with Him), i want a comel2 nephew/niece..just like me..haha. Yana, is preparing for her STPM paper on this coming Tuesday..Wish her a good luck pak, this gonna be very tough one for her, STPM in Science stream..But don't worry pak, you know Yana, she will try her very best..oh ya, I'm having my final exam right now pak, then, 9 more days, and I will be home..holiday..yeah..

How I wish you are here right now pak, still too much to talk..I miss you pak, but I promise, I won't cry anymore every time I think of you, cause I know you didn't like that tears. I will be a strong daughter pak, not that little congek girl anymore. I will face each problem with your spirit inside me, i won't give up easily anymore pak...Just 1 request pak, can you appear in my dream tonight pak, i just want to meet you...last word, I love you pak..may God bless you always..

your daughter,

~emie~

my apak...

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end of day 3...

Day 2 —A letter to Your Crush

hah..look like this challenge become more and more difficult..I really don't know what to write this day...honestly, at first, i didn't really get the meaning of "crush"..confius a bit..hahha..after some research and some revision i understand that i should write a letter to person that I like or maybe attract me or better person that I fall in love with..so, i will try my best..:-)

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hi there,

I don't know since when you became priority of my life. I cannot live even a single day without thinking of you, thinking of your smile, your laugh, your face and even I can smell your perfume everywhere. Oh , you should tell me what spell you used on me that make me smiling alone thinking of you everyday...even now its getting worst, you keep appears in my dreams and make me wake up late everyday, coz what a sweet sweet dream..ha..:-)

Other maybe think I shouldn't liked you this much because you are too good for me, but me myself can't control this feeling too, its beyond my control too...and for they information, i didn't like you because you are that good or you are hot , macho or sewaktu dengannya.. i'm not in love with your physical (except your smile) but with the person inside you..

here, 5 things that make me having crush on you:

1. you are so special in your own way...you never tried to be second-version of other, you are just so cool being yourself.

2. i like the way you care about people around you, especially your family, your sibling...

3. Only you who dare to scold me (besides my family and cikgu2 sekolah dulu) when I have done mistakes or whatsoever....you make me think and learn a lot from my own mistakes.

4. I loves your jokes, your sense of humor..Every words that come from you can make others laugh..

5. and, like what I said earlier, I like your smiles, it so sincere..I can see hope in your smile, that can bring sunshine to other.

addition, you really good in manage yourself, your time, your study, your money and even your stress..

I should end this letter I guest, I have talked to much..sorry..last word from me...

no matter what happen after this, either you are mine or not,I'm glad, cause I once had you as my crush..I will waiting for you in the next birth, if you are not mine this time....but there is nothing wrong to keep hoping right...theres nothing wrong to keep hoping, but u must sure dat it is worthy to hope for =) hope keeps human alive. u must not let hope disappear. when it gone, da person in u will gone too. juz make sure u keep hoping.. whatever hope it is.. =) (thanks to Walton for the idea that completed my sentence:-) )

sekian

~peminat awak~

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Having crush is not just about liking someone for fun, it is about feeling attached with someone beyond your control and even we ourself don't know how to stop thinking about that person...-sa cakap-

when serving God.....

I should answer my 2nd-day challenge kan, tapi really want to write bout this now,mlam nanti lah sambung challenge tu kan.hihi..

Just after GIFT exco reflection..actually for exco only, but then milton(mr.president ask me to come), so i join them..after around 10 minutes in AVI room(tmpt reflection tu lah), I said to Milton, look like I'm doing nothing here, better I go out. But then, after 5 minutes left that room, I felt quilty, especially towards Milton, he asked me to come, i should be there, although doing nothing there, I should just be there and show a little support to them (apalah sa ni..haha) .....then, sa pun masuk balik and join group under VP1...bila join dorang & dengar reflection from everyone of them kan, i really touched..apa yg paling sa suka bila masing-masing mereka cakap"sebenarnya sa sgt kesian dengan kamu, dengan department kamu, macam susah jak mok cari org"..Then, the other 1 lagi pun cakap "sa pun sebenarnya kesian dengan ur department"....bila dgr ni, my heart rejoiced..happy..this is what we call Gifters..each other think about one another, not their own department only..thanks God coz you give us that spirit, caring for each other, 1 family spirit..with that spirit sebenarnya yang buat we Gifters can serve You more and more...:-)

after all of them finished with their sharing, suddenly, they request for me and 1 of my pencen mate(identiti dirahsiakan) to share too..1 question that we need to answer "y you still want to serve although you are not in exco anymore, y are u still here?"hahhaha..lagi susah dari soalan programming final..

i don't know if my long sharing just now really answer that question...haha..so, lets me share again the answer here...rite after GIFT AGM that day, i really frustrated when i didn't won any post..check my previous entry if you want to know more what I felt that time..kalo sa crita balik, pnjg sgt entry ni nanti..haha(http://dutdutrt.blogspot.com/2010/03/im-happy-with-your-plan-god.html)..

First reason:sa blum puas, dats y I'm still here...yah, of course our priority here is to study, tapi kalo study saja without joining Gift, i think, sa x bole berkembang...and kalo joining GIFT saja tanpa pelayanan juga i will not growing in my spritual..I must do something to God, so that I can growing in my faith...hanya ketika melayani Tuhan sa rasa sa bole express diri saya sepenuh-penuhnya..I will automatically being who I am when I serve God, coz I know God will not judging me...didn't believe me our god never judge us?ok, i will proof..hahhaa..bila sa jadi komentator nobody will judge me for my point or apa2 jaklah..tapi kalo present dalam klas, mesti untuk markah kan, & mesti mok kna follow lecturer punya expectation bru dapat markah yg bgus..see..when we serve dalam koir ka, or anything God won't put any limit for us..buruk kah suara kita, He didn't care that..yg pntg hati kita..that y i'm still here my fren..i want to be at place where i can be myself, without any limit..haha....look like diffrent from answer just know kan..hahha..sebab, sometime there is unspoken words that cannot be express, tapi bila tulis bole..haha..eh, merepek, back to the question..

the other reason y I'm still serving God: I love what I do, and I enjoy it..I believe ,once we follow Jesus, not we who decide when to stop..there is no on/off button in serving God, He is the one that will give us rest if we are tired, tell us to stop or to go on...He know what is the best for us..He own us, and he knows everything about us...

i really struck with my dearest fren' word just now: "God will provided"....yah, kdg2 dlm hidup kita selalu rsau tentang mcm2 kan, tntg makan, mnum, money, love life,study, anything lah..tapi once we trust God, He will provide...Dia sentiasa melengkapi..macam tu juga dalam bila kita melayani, He always provide...bila kita rasa kerja kita itu berat, He will be there to comfort us, in way that we cannot see...God will provide, always and never failed.

markus 6~8: Bapamu mengetahui apa yang kamu perlukan sebelum kamu minta kepada-Nya.25: Janganlah khuatir akan hidupmu, akan apa hendak kamu makan atau minum, dan janganlah kuatir pula akan tubuhmu, akan apa yang akan kamu pakai.32: akan tetapi Bapamu yang di sorga tahu, bahwa kamu memerlukan semua itu.

last word, don't feel burden when it come to serve lord my dear fren..He will guide us, hold our hand and be besides us, anytime.....

Day 1 —A letter to Your Best Friend

ok starting my 1st day challenge today...

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To my bestfren(you know who i'm refering to><)..

Pagi2 lagi sa dah anta msg bukan2 kan, emo2, sakit hati lah sebab ko buat sa jadi BSKL(budak sik kena layan)..haha...at first place, sa marah ni..marah btul dgn ko..mcmna ko bole2 ignore sa bgtu lama...macam lari dari sa and lupa pa ko janji dulu(bukan movie "janji Diana" 2)haha....

tgok2, bila bermesej tadi, ketara sa yg terlebih emo sebenarnya..sensitif...hahhahahha..emo mengalahkan apa jak kan..really sorry for that....like wat i said just now fren, i already lost my dearest one so many times & i don't want to lost another 1, a special fren like u..bgi sa kan kawan, kawan tu segala-galanya...sa sayang kawan2 sa macam sa sayang family sa..ilang kawan, samalah macam ilang satu family member..ya lah emo ya..haha...

pa lagi mok cakap ar...rasa mok berpuisi, tapi takut nanti ko termuntah pula kawan, simpan jak lah sastera sa ni..hahha..just want you to know..syukur sebab kita berjumpa dan berkawan ... and this is the greatest give at ol that dear God give to me, to have a bestfren like you...jangan kembang dulu hidung, bru sikit sa puji ni..hahha.i like it wen we never miss to say hello to each other everyday, wlaupun skrg jarang dah..i like it wen you berlawak, kalah pelawak profesional...pa lagi, kalo kita pgi buat benda bodoh2 bersama, sa suuuka hahha.and i like it wen you marah2 or pndai complaint sa depan2..sebab, that was a true fren for...and wat i like the most bout you my fren, you a very good listener and a "bad" advisor ..hahha..no doubt..orang lain kalo selalu dgr msalah kwan kan, org akan cuba tenang kan kawan tu, tapi ko lain kawan...bole2, ko akan marah sa n suruh pikir baik2 knapa semua masalah tu jdi...berabis lah sa akan nangis2 tu, tapi lpas nangis tu, yah, sa akan pkir dgn baik and selesaikan masalah tu..you always guide me to a better solution, not teach me to runaway from my problem..

banyak lagi mok ckp, tpi tulah takut ko termuntah..so,kesimpulannya kawan, I don't know what to say anymore...you are the best fren I ever have...Thanks God coz you are my fren and thanks my fren coz being there for me everytime i need a fren..jangan berhenti tegur sa kalo sa da salah k, sebab sa x perfect, n jgn pernah penat melayan sa yang emo ni..haha...janji yg satu lagi jangan lupa k...hahha..oopps lagi satu, jgn takut menyusahkan sa, sbab sa pun suka wat bgtu..haha..i will be there whenever you need me..ok...

naik lori, naik bas,

lepas baca, harap dibalas...

hahhahhahhaha..........

yours sincerely,(x mok ilang markah format..haha)

-emie yg ko bilang cute-hahhaa

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If you reach this entry my fren, matilah..hahahahhahaha...

30 days letter challenge

hallo ol...

I found this challenge on internet after tercabar tgok walton punya challenge and x mok kalah and rasa mok jawab juga...tapi dia x bagi sa jwab challenge yg sama, so dgn bntuan pak cik google , I found this...hahahha...lama dah rasa mok wat benda bgini, so that for 30 days, my blog akan kena update hari-hari..baik untk kesihatan my blog..hahhaha....ok, the challenge gonna start today..sa baca buku dulu skjap ..nanti kejap lagi sa jawab..hehhee

The 30 Day Letter Challenge

WRITE A LETTER TO THESE PEOPLE :

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

macamana nak tangkap rama-rama ni???

hello ol..

Dalam byk2 binatang(kalo rama2 itu dalam kategori binatang), saya sangat suka rama-rama..sa suka tgok tu.Rama-rama, cantik...n yg pling sa suka pasal rama-rama, dorang yakin jak hidup sepuas2nya, walaupun hayat hidup dorang singkat jak..2 minggu kalo x silap..saya ingat lagi time kecil2 dulu, cikgu sekolah SEDIDIK(tadika) suruh kami tangkap rama-rama..tyme tu bru umur 6 tahun..bila kena suruh, gian lah..excited...kira mcm hujung minggu kena suruh tangkap tu, isnin bawa pergi sekolah...merengek lah minta ibu temankan pegi tangkap, tp seingat saya, ibu

saudara saya yg temankan....dengan jaring penangkap, pergilah dari satu pokok bunga, ke satu pokok bunga..x senang rupanya kerja ni...rama-rama tu cantik..tapi, bila kita dekat jak , dia akan lari....macamana nak tangkap rama-rama ni???

startlah gadis 6 tahun ni fed up..last2, yg berabis kejar rama-rama tu, ibu saudara saya, saya dok excited tunjuk, yang tu nah, yang sana tuh cantik, tu lagi cantik..hahha..tapi nasib baik lah juga dapat...

Sekarang, bila dah besar, still suka rama-rama...tapi, sekarang saya paham rama-rama dari perspektif yang lain..kehidupan..

kawan saya pernah cakap ni...

"rama-rama nampak memang indah, tapi jangan terlalu dikejar, sebab makin kita dekat, makin ia jauh dengan kita,hujung-hujung, mungkin rama-rama tu akan lari dan terus terlepas buat selama-lamanya..."

hahhaha...penuh makna kan...tapi pa pula kaitan suma ni ngan hidup kan..jom, kita try discover k..

bila dipikir balik kata2 sahabat baik ini..yup, rma-rama ni lambang kehidupan..

Dalam hidup, kita selalu menginginkan sesuatu yg indah kan...tapi, selalunya, yang indah tak mudah nak dapat..kena berusaha dulu sehabis mungkin, baru akan dapat..macam tu juga dgn kes rama-rama, kalo nak tangkap rama-rama yangg paling cantik, mgkin kita perlu berusaha dari satu pokok bunga ke pokok bunga yang lain, dari satu belukar, ke belukar yang lain...maksudnya, mok dapat hasil yang memuaskan dalam segala perbuatan kita, kena buat sehabis baik..:-)

Dari soal cinta pun begitu juga, untuk mendapat cinta sejati yang kita idam-idamkan, kita pun kena apply konsep rama-rama ni..rama-rama ni susah, jangan terlampau dikejar, dekat sikit dah lari, cukuplah tengok dari jauh jak kan..nikmati keindahan itu sepuasnya..bole kah begitu....mana bole kan, pasti ada rasa mok terus memilik rama-rama tu kan.hahha..then, timbul balik persoalan "macamana nak tangkap rama-rama ni?"

Then, kawan sa cakap lagi..kesabaran kunci dia..sabar tunggu tu rama-rama, jangan takutkan dia, tangkap bila ada peluang..slow-slow, jangan biar ia terbang terkezut..haha.

My fren cakap lagi, once ko suka tu rama-rama,hati-hati...kadang-kadang, rama-rama ni nampak sangat cantik luarannya, tapi ada yang berbisa..jaga-jaga...

tapi, jangan berhenti mengejar rama-rama u ol k..once tu rama-rama tahu kita yang selalu sabar memerhatikan dia, one day ia akan datang sendiri dan hinggap di tangan kita dengan sendiri nya....

P/s:sekian..bila dut2 merepek..hahaha..

beautiful.....

borink2 d ptg minggu..online & suddenly found this story..nice 1..

I remember the story: John Blanchard stood up from the bench, straightened his Army uniform, and studied the crowd of people making their way through Grand Central Station. He looked for the girl whose heart he knew, but whose face he didn't, the girl with the rose. His interest in her had begun thirteen months before in a Florida library. Taking a book off the shelf he found himself intrigued, not with the words of the book, but with the notes penciled in the margin. The soft handwriting reflected a thoughtful soul and insightful mind.

In the front of the book, he discovered the previous owner's name, Miss Holly Maynell. With time and effort he located her address. She lived in New York City. He wrote her a letter introducing himself and inviting her to correspond.

The next day he was shipped overseas for service in World War II. During the next year and one month, the two grew to know each other through the mail. Each letter was a seed falling on a fertile heart. A romance was budding. Blanchard requested a photograph, but she refused. She felt that if he really cared, it wouldn't matter what she looked like.When the day finally came for him to return from Europe, they scheduled their first meeting - 7.00 p.m. at the Grand Central Station in New York.

"You'll recognize me," she wrote, "by the red rose I'll be wearing on my lapel." So at 7.00 p.m. he was in the station looking for a girl whose heart he loved, but whose face he'd never seen. I'll let Mr. Blanchard tell you what happened:

A young woman was coming toward me, her figure long and slim. Her blonde hair lay back in curls from her delicate ears; her eyes were blue as flowers. Her lips and chin had a gentle firmness, and in her pale green suit she was like springtime come alive. I started toward her, entirely forgetting to notice that she was not wearing a rose. As I moved, a small provocative smile curved her lips. "Going my way, sailor?" she murmured.

Almost uncontrollably, I made one step closer to her, and then I saw Holly Maynell. She was standing almost directly behind the girl. A woman well past 40, she had graying hair tucked under a worn hat. She was more than plump, her thick-ankled feet thrust into low-heeled shoes. The girl in the green suit was walking quickly away. I felt as though I was split in two, so keen was my desire to follow her, and yet so deep was my longing for the woman whose spirit had truly companioned me and upheld my own.

And there she stood. Her pale, plump face was gentle and sensible, her gray eyes had a warm and kindly twinkle. I did not hesitate. My fingers gripped the small worn blue leather copy of the book that was to identify me to her.

This would not be love, but it would be something precious, something perhaps even better than love, a friendship for which I had been and must ever by grateful. I squared my shoulders and saluted and held out the book to the woman, even though while I spoke I felt choked by the bitterness of my disappointment. "I'm Lieutenant John Blanchard, and you must be Miss Maynell. I am so glad you could meet me; may I take you to dinner?" The woman's face broadened into a tolerant smile. "I don't know what this is about, son," she answered, "but the young lady in the green suit who just went by, she begged me to wear this rose on my coat. And she said if you were to ask me out to dinner, I should tell you that she is waiting for you in the big restaurant across the street. She said it was some kind of test!"

- Houssaye

Gambar sekadar hiasan..:-)

story review:(ada juga..hahha)

This is what it suppose to be kan...cinta org tu sebab hati kita btul2 sayang dia, bukan sebab fizikal dia atau saja nak berlagak "bf aku hensem..or gf aku lawa"..kalo dpat yg lwa n hnsem tu, anggap tu bonus lah kan..hihi...bila mncari cinta, jgn gunakan mata kasar, guna mata hati, bru akan jumpa cinta sejati..:-)last word:

Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth,
even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you
smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day
seem bright.

p/s: sorry..look like my entries kblakangan ini jiwang2 skit kan..hahhaa..apapun...njoy reading k..

This love...

this love...

This love...

i know it is true..

although others found it seem to be imposible, but i know.

it is true..

pure..sincere..firm...

sudden and beyond my controlled..

but yet..still i know it is REAL..

this love is God's loves..

it comes from GOD, and yes..i know it is trully REAL...

dut1311104.13am

p/s:simptom x dpt tdo mlm..hahaha

I miss that old day my friend..

I miss that old days my friend,

when we used to ..

say hi to each other every morning..

told each other everything that we do every single day..

enjoy every single meals together..

asking each other "how are you doing today"..

sharing every story,no matter sad or happy one...

telling jokes to one another and laughing together....

and even..

say good night and pray to each other before close our eyes every night..

i miss that old days my friend...

when you kept telling me ..

that i'm your bestfren,yesterday, today and for the

rest of the day..

and you won't left me no matter what happen..

how i miss that old days my fren...

when life was so painful to traveled alone..

and you're there to wipe all my tears away..

hold my hand when i'm down...

cheers me up when i said i'm gonna cry..

and....

i really miss that old day my fren....

dut2...00:53am 12.11.2010...

i love baby..

hari ni satu lagi kakak sebelah bilik bawa baby dia, baby girl..my God...cute.....btw, jangan heran k, kmi tinggal d blok ngan kakak2 master/phd, so ada 2 3 yg dah ada family....dengar suara budak tu jak pun rasa geram, rasa mok cubit2 jak, tpi apa bole buat, anak orang..haha..anth ckp, macam pahlawan samurai jak budak tu, dengan rambut tocang atas..haha..semenjak kami tahu ada baby girl di bilik sebelah ni hari, x habis2 kami pgi tandas..p cuci tangan lah, cuci muka lah..macam2 lah, padahal mok lalu tu bilik jak and tengok that Cute little baby..haha..macam chibi2 mamoru chan pun ada..hihi..

macam ni nah..rambut dia..hi(sorry, x dpt gmbr baby tu, anak org kan..hi)

sa sangat suka budak2..tp buat masa ni, suka anak org lah dulu, sebab sendiri blum ada lesen buat anak..haha..di family kami, xda baby kecil sangat dah, paling2 pun dah tahun 3, so dah samseng dah, mna bole dmanja2....ada kazen kecil2 pun duduk jauh, jumpa setahun sekali..bila duduk asrama bgini, lagilah, main anak patung jak lah..hahha.(beruntung duduk blok ni..ada juga dgr bunyi baby kan..hehe).nasib baiklah, d church kami ada 2 3 baby comel yg datang bertandang ma parent dorg..my God, kalo tu baby duduk sebelah sa time mass, sorry God...x terfokus mass, tgila2kan ni baby...bukan apa..sedang mengkagumi kecomelan ciptaan Tuhan..hihi...

Ni Shawn...anak kakak nancy, memeber chuc..comel dia ni..

dahlah x pandai takut, diam jak..hihi

Dengar suara baby, bole buat sa rasa tenang..kalo baby tu ketawa, sa pun pandai ikut ketawa..in baby eyes pun kita bole nmpak a lot of hopes....& yg best pasal baby, dorg akan buat apa jak dorang rasa mok buat, mok nangis, nangis, mok ketwa, ketawa jak, mok ngogok pun jalan jak..kalolah kita pun bole begitu kan, mesti puas hati...haha...pendek kata, i love baby lah..hahaha..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cXXm696UbKY

Go to this link..gila funny ni baby, ketawa sepuas hati dia...comel...

hahahha..macam aneh jak kan topik sa, tiba2 cita sal baby..hahha..sebenar, I'm the happiest person on earth rite now..gonna be auntie soon..hahha..my sister is pregnant rite now..maybe around 3-4 month..hahah..nak dapat anak buah ..yeah!..

to my sister and ol Otw mummy out there, I pray both you and your baby akan sihat2 sampai dilahirkan, jadi anak yang comel macam saya..hahaha...

me & my frens best quotes...

Hai..emie muncul lagi..biasalah blogger chipsmore..kejap ada kejap xda..hahhaa...

just wanna share beberapa quote yang terkeluar dari rangka otak ni sejak main fb..macam2 ada....and ol that actually define me..define what i have been learnt through my own journey..lets check it out..btw, some are from my frens(ada nama tu sana..hihi)..thanks fren 4 the contribution..hihi

1. When everything seems to be wrong in your friendship, give each others time...time will heal...(emie~25.10.2010)
2. Show that you are CARE for your friend, not too much, a little is enough, just to let them know that there are someone out there whom is smiling when they are smiling and crying when they are crying.... (emie~25.10.2010)
3. No matter what happen to your day..or how much your duty rush you, don't ever forget to smile because your smile can calm you and even, bring sunshine to others..(emie~21.10.2010)
4. Someday your prince charming will come. Mine just took a wrong turn, got lost, and is too stubborn to ask for directions...(unknown~find from internet)
5. I would be a bridge for 500 years in the wind, 500 years in the sun and 500 years in the rain if he would cross me once...(The Reign of Assassin-17.10.2010)
6. "sometimes we struggling hard to get someone whom we desired, but da fact dat the one dat truly love u is juz right beside.. esp during ur hard times. love isnt blind, human are"-(walton wider-15.10.2010)
7. Each new day is a miracle.(emie~14.10.2010)
8. Sometimes, the one you loved the most will be the one you hate the most and the one you hated the most will be the one you love the most!(~homily fr.ravie~9.10.10)
9. Don't ever ask for any rewards in anything you do, coz you will never feel joy & satisfaction in urself if u ask for it..just do it with all ur heart, and God will give u joys...(emie~21.9.2010)
10. happiness is something that we ourself create, not something that we need to find..that how I define happiness in me-(emie~20.9.2010)

My journey creates my own quotes, my own spice of life..same goes to you..hihi..What I believe is, Life is a learning Process....Setiap apa yang kita lalui pun adalah satu proses pembelajaran yang mematangkan kita..kan....

p/s:hak cipta terpelihara..bye,sehingga berjumpa lagi..:-)

sem 5 at UTM....

long..long time tidak memblong..as usual, alasan busy..hahhaha...tapi, sem 5 d UTM.wow, x caya eh..hahhaha.byk cita...hurm, mari siasat:-)

1st week

Actually, I still enjoyed my holiday at home during this first week..haha..extend holiday ma.hahha.but then,I started my semester with a terrible, horrible flight..OMG, my flight was on 16 July 2010(detail juga, haha.)It supposed to depart at 7pm delay to 8.30pm then delay again to 11.30pm and lastly, only departed at 12.05AM...I arrived at Johor arround 2.00Am on 17 July, and lebih sedih, that was my birthday..huhu..celebrating my bday at apot..padan muka extend cuti.haha..Nasib baik ada dua hero jemput saya dari apot masa tu, siap bawa MacD lagi(identiti hero dirahsiakan..haha)....Then, that week was full with meeting..PFF meeting( i miss this), SS meeting, and MJCC meeting..yang bestnya, my bday was celebrated 2 times this year, by CMT n of course by GIFTERs..hi...first week was happening..

2nd week

cannot remember to much wat happen this week..study going well...Isnin masuk klas macam besa, urus2 ptukaran section, byk jadual bertembung ....masih relax2 lagi, bru week 2 kan....cuma, this week, busy urus PFF award night yg berlangsung on 24 July..As a director, a lot of things need my special attention, sampai pning2 kepala juga..buat urgent meeting lah tuk pastikan everything goes well, mlm sebelum event macam besa jam 4 baru tidur..But then, i'm satisfied with this event..kerja keras committee selama hampir setahun berakhir dengan jayanya..thanks to all..to all participant, congratz..after this I upload ur video k..wat ckit editing dulu..week 2 was awesome...

Tulang belakang Punggek Film festival 2010(muka2 bahagia hbis event..hahha)

3rd week

ok kehidupan semakin mengujakan..haha..Minggu ni pun study masih lenggang kangkung lagi..apa yang menarik, ujung minggu ada Welcoming weekend fellowsip..so, final preparation..ops cari junior tuk join and so on..penat pun penat..tapi, macam besa , WWF 2010 was successful..mantap..9 junior join WWF ni kali..

Congratz Mr.Director~Aurel~ and all the committee..week 3 was freaking fun..

4th week

apa pula cita ni minggu..hurm..ok assigment pun start melambak..PSM pun mula start gear..tajuk dah approve n start engine chapter 1..lpas tu, busy pula kna apply tempat wat latihan industri tuk next sem..terasa sudah bahang study.hoho..tapi dalam kesibukan itu, mesti ada benda yg mnarik tuk release dari suma stress ni..Yes, hujung minggu ada camping MASSA..(persatuan Mahasiswa Sarawak UTM)...busy jugalah, coz jadi ajk juga tuk camping ni..kami p camping d Teluk Gorek, mersing,.mang best tuk cari ketenagan ni tempat..week 4 was amazing..

muka2 penat jungle trekking..tapi nang best eh!

***alalalla..ada meeting jap g.need to go.nanti sambung cita tuk week2 strusnya.hihihi..bye2..

I'm happy with Your plan God...

Hallo all.

Yesterday, my CSS-GIFT having our 22^nd AGM.Aim for this is to dissolve the previous exco and elect the new 1...I’m the part of the previous exco and also nominate myself for the new exco. Before this, I serve as Coordinator for GIFT Liturgical Department (GLD). Although, it was a very tough job for me, it was really a wonderful experience. Every week, I and my beloved Vice Coordinator Rina yg cute need to prepare for mass. Find the server, prepare the slide and make sure masses is running smoothly became routine of my life since I hold that post for the past 1 year. At first, I enjoy my job but it not last long. It started became a burden for me. I cannot concentrate during masses. I always worried about how the mass wil run. Is it run smoothly? Are the servers serve well without any mistake? Are they any problem during mass, and so many other things to worries about . .I really need to work hard before every masses .Sometime I feel I’m not serve with all my heart anymore, but only to fulfill my duty. And until one part I blame this job for my bad performance in academic. I said to myself, I will retire after this, GIFT really cause curse in my life. It really a breakdown in my life.How bad am I right?huhu. But, thanks God, I manage to fulfill my duties until the day I retired.

On 6-7 March 2010, 2 weeks before retirement, I was lucky to join a retreat for exco organized by GIFT Faith Development Department, Lorna & Bunga. And once again, thanks God the theme is really relate to me and my duty in GIFT. The prodigal son.(Luke15:11-32). This retreat really opens my heart, my eyes. In serve God we must offer ourselves to God with love, not only because of our duty, our responsibility. Then, God called me to serve again in GIFT by open my heart to nominate myself forVice President 2 and treasurer position for the AGM.

The time come, AGM was successful and the result is:

President : Milton Wider

VP1: Steffi Mit

VP2: Karlvin Jungan

Secretary: Sylvia Bunga

Treasurer : Lorna Carolyn Miseh

GFD: Grace Lulo

GFDD: Rayner

GLD: Felicia(c)

Carolyn Jemmy(vc)

GMM: Constantine(c)

Patrissa(vc)

Mission: Clarissa Blasius(c)

Bathromiaz James(vc)

Public Relation & MJCC Representatives: Aurel Lotius Bagu

T& T: Rachel Aswin

Publicity : Hazelyna Makerly

Eh, where is my name? Is it missing? hahahhaha..nope..sa kalah undi bha gia..at first ,yah, I feel a little bit sad.

This is my conversation with God right after the AGM:

Dut dut: “God, why when I feel still want to serve You, You don’t want to give me a chance”. I want to prove this time I will offer everything to You with love. But why don’t You give me any chance??”

God: My dearest Dut dut. What are you so worried of? Who said you cannot serve Me anymore? I love you Dut and I want to give you a little time for yourself, to concentrate more on your study and your uni life. I know you are 1 of (Persatuan Mahasiswa Sarawak (MASSA) Committee and you have your commitment there. Then, Punggek Film Festival is still going on. I don’t want you to lose on your way Dut dut. It’s not about how much power you achieve, but it is about how much you love me. Just do with all your heart the best you can. Serving Me is not about pushing yourself over the limit, but it is about getting yourself happiness in your days. I love you Dut dut.

Dut dut: God is good, all the time. I’m happy with Your plan God & I know You made everthing for a reason.Thanks God..:-)